Closed Closure

as much as i hate admittin it..i do mish u!..like a lot a lot..not so much tht i'd die if i wasnt with u..but it's more on the i wish i could do this with u..i cant help comparing him to u and to deny the fact tht i'm still in love with u..=(..i messed up big , so i'm lettin karma take over..i deserve everythin i get..and i'm big enuff to deal with it..i love u to much to put u thru the same thing..u deserve way better..as hard as it is to swallow u do..you gave me nothing but love and i took it for granted..if only i could tell u all this..and close this capture of closure..