lettin go

How much do u have to let go till it satisfactory

i'm so annoyed by u right now..i think..

so much so, till i don't noe whut for

i always thought that it had nuthin to do with me

but now i see, it nvr was anyones fault..

i dont wan u to take the blame for everythin..

but jumpin in front of a train for me once in awhile won't hurt..

gosh..i don't believe how self-centered i'm being..

why are u here..do u wan to be unhappy?

i choose to hurt u..then cry about it..

i'm afraid i'm not strong enuff for this..

please make it easy for me to watch..

i guess maybe it's for the best

that i let the balloon fly as high as it takes.

No strings attached

awesome saturday!

well..yest started off as a normal day enuff..but it all changed when i got a letter..

*jeng jeng*

haha..in march, i innocently enuff listened to my mum and sent in an entry essay to the star..about sum youth workshop thingy..named BRATs...(bright, roving annoying teens)..hehe..and up until last month i thought there was clearly no chance of me gettin in..but yest..i got a letter sayin i got accepted..and the best part is..its in KUCHING!!..woohooo!!..i'll be flyin MAS thank u very much!..haha...it's in August..hopefully i'll be as fun as people say it is..anyways..my day didn't stop there..nope..my mum had a brilliant idea of watchin a movie..so they headed to MV first to book the movie..me and bro joined them later..we had late lunch..and then hurried over for the movie..one of the good things goin out with ure parents..you don't have to pull out a cent..=p!..heheh..then again..u'll feel the pinch later on..=p=p!..the movie was freakin awesome!..Fantastic 4 2...it was really good

i personally loved the silver surfer!..his voice is to die for!..literally!..hehe..it was good..

after that..we went window shoppin...then ended up in the sports shop..mum saw the 50% sale and trotted in..so we followed..and i saw it!..The most awesome blades!..i swear!!..so after loads of tryin on and stuff for fun..my mum and dad..decided to buy me and my bro a pair!..wooot wooot!!..the end result!..*tada*!

..i'm in love..*smirks*
..::thankz mum and dad::..

fergie-Big girls don't dry

i'm currently so ln love with this song!..i dunno why but its speakz by itself la..just do me a favour and listen!..awe-some-ness!..

Big Girls Don't cry

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center clarity
Peace, Serenity


[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
'Cause I’ve got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry



The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay



[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
'Cause I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry



Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center clarity
Peace, Serenity



[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
'Cause I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry


La Da Da Da Da Da

take my hand and we'll make wonders happen!

i never felt this way in a long time,
today when u took my hand,

my fears disappeared,

i wanted you at every chance i got,

you reminded me why i love you,

and u do a bloody good job,

i don't want this to go away..

i don't want u to leave..

stay with me babe, and we'll make this happen..

to hell with everyone who objects,

your mine and I'll proudly show u off..

Nobody gonna love me better,

i must stick with u my baby..

fathers day

well..i noe this is kinder belated..but whut the hey..hehe..HAPPY BELATED FATHERS DAY DAD!!!..the sole provider of the family for many years before and many years to come..=)..my dad's just my dad..i can't explain it futher..he's just one of a kind la..seriously..newayz..due to fathers day..we..i mean..*cough cough* me..suggested the idea of goin to the seaside..and my mum thought it'd be fun to have a pinic by the beach too..awesome-ness!!...so we started of the day by sneakin behind my dad's back to put all the stuff in the car..i swear he was so clue-less..hehe..then we drove up to PD..

[dad gettin comfortable in my shades..=p]

so after we nicely stuffed from nasi lemak to french sandwiches to nachos to cake, we decided to do sumthin on the beach..so we created the who can throw a mudball the furthest or wtv la game..haha..it was fun ok..needless to say who the winner is..=p!

haha..didn't wan to post more up..=p!..haha..then after the whole group picture-thingamajig...we decided to drive down to Melaka, they have a really good hot spring place..so off we went..=p

i was really taken aback by the place it was super nice...this is part of the pool..it's effin hawt water!..180 Fahrenheit..equivalent to 90 Celsius..which is just 10 C below boiling point!..wth right..and u wonder how ppl get in..thats just the thing..no one is really really in!!..anyways, we were just sittin by the side and yea...thats about it..but it's effin good for the skin..

so yea we lepaked there for awhile..had an ice-cream..=p..then continued our journey back.

then we cam-whored and drove back..of course a trip is not complete without cam-whoring piccyz..=p!..

that just about sumarizes our short-trip-to-PD...of course we had to stop at Kajang to have our owh so famous Kajang Satay..=)

[ally]

let me hide

i don't noe if u notice

but i sumtimes wear a mask that covers not only my appearance,

but also my feelings.

i don't intend to hurt u eva,

but i can't help it sumtimes..

there are things u are yet to learn about me,

so many things to tell, so little patience..
i noe ure fed up, i feel it..

but i can't do anythin about it..

i've grown immune to the fact that i hide behind the mask everytime,

i don't wanna take it off..

i'm hideous behind it..

i dare no one to see it

but i noe u see right thru me..

and sumtimes it worries me..

left behind

it's funny isn't it..

that no matter how much u get..

u still wan more..
There's no pleasing until whut is demanded is given..

but even then,

it'll only last until u seek sumthin else..

Question?..Whut do u need to seek till u seek no more?

i'm losing my grip on u...

i don't noe if u feel it or u choose to ignore it

but i'm feel like im back to square one with u..

everythin u do is to hurt me..

the feelin of insecurity kicks in..

how do i stop it..

i'm feelin left behind..

everytime i walk, u run

and everytime i run, u stop.

help me to help u to help me understand

a tribute to ma homiez!

..:: a lil sumthin sumthin for my friends..i noe i can't list all of u guys down..but these were the people i had piccyz with..=)::..

[JuliEn]

..::whut do i have to say about him..besides he's my everythin..he nvr fails to put a smile on my face..he's my pumpie-yumpie-yummykins..=)..hehe..it's been 3 months and 21 days..since we got together..gosh..it still seems like only yest i meet him..hehe..i wuff u boo!..=)..i noe this isn't much..but if i tell u everythin about him..he wouldn't be as mysterious..=p..::..

[Gal-Gal!]

..::hehe...Gal is just super super funny!..he nvr fails to crack me up!..hehe..whut would coll be without him..hehe..and he's a great friend in need..he tried helpin me to draw..but Gal..as i told u..i'm as useless as it gets..ahaha..Thankz for everythin..*huGgiEz*:..

[JohNny Boi]

..::johhny boiii!!..omg..i got so much to say about him!..he's such a carin, kind and good-lookin chap..he's always been there for me too..whenever i needed anythin..i wouldn't be who i am without my johnny boi!..hehe..and yea gurls..this guy is single and available..he is definately sumone u do not wanna miss out on!..i'm serious!!!..*huGz*::..

[Kartz and Thigz]

..::a darlin duoz..hehe..this two gurls mean the world to me..we three share sumthin u just cant explain..whenever we meet up or talk..we have this understandin for each other..this invisible bond..these two are the first people i turn to if i have troubles or anythin..we've been thru a lot together..and i hope it continues..all the mini partys we've had..not to mention our nacho parties..=)..hehe..luv u guyz!!!!!!!!!...*MuAkz..huGgiez*::..

[SharOn]

..::this is ma babe in coll la..was so weird..she was the first person i met in coll..she's so outgoin..so active and always so hyper..hehe..we've gone places together and been thru quite alot of drama in coll..haha..it wouldn't be the same in coll if she wasn't around..haha..*huGz*::..

[DaRren n jAy]

..::this two i got to noe thru my sister..darren is my emo-whore la..hehe..u should seee the drama we pull..in PUBLIC!..haha..he's just a super guy to be with..it's nvr a dull moment around him..::..

..::Jay is also the bomb la..a kick ass-daring-bitch slappin-sacarstic-don't mess with me chicka..hehe..she's just sumone u don't wanna mess with..put darren and jay together..and u've got a terrible duo..the amount of arguin this two do..haha..it's entertainin..no doubt..but it's a love hate thing..hahah::..

[CheVy]

..::chevy baybeh is the gurl la..she's effin talented and a bloody good dancer..hehe..she's such a carin friend..very outspoken..the pic was taken durin her burfday..she's 20!..hehe..newayz..it was really nice gettin to noe u..i hope we keep this goin..and keep rawkin chiqa!..=)::..

[JosHy]

..::omg joshy washy!!..so much to talk about!!..haha..he's a real doll!..not denyin the fact that he is a die hard pussycat doll fan..but he really is damn nice..he just clickz with everyone..and i mean everyone..he's effin fun to hang with..and he's so so friendly!..ahhaa..we've had a lot of things goin on..the things we used to do back in the dayz..every moment is cherish..i hope u noe that joshy!..i luv ya!..*hugZ*::..

[pEter]

..::Peter bum!..he's a pig la i tell u..but i still wuff him!..hehe..he's the one who introduced me to my juju-kins!..hehe..i miss peter a whole lot in coll..things just aren't the same..no one buggin us to go eat..no one always remindin us about Pork mee..no one whining about his hunger..no one to bully..no one to make sacarstic jokes..haha..he's deeply missed..=)..hehe..but he's still a bum!..haha..thankz for everythin peter..i noe deep down u care don't u!..=p::..

[sUreSh]

..::haha..Suresh..aka D'resh!..hehe..Resh is my bro in coll la..he's like a big bro i never had..hehe..althought he assumes everyone is his sister..i still feel special..hahaha!..gosh..i sound so sad..hahah..newayz..he's damn funny and sportin..he is also one of the first people i met in coll..on the first day la..he's been there for me eva since..from match-makin me..to helpin me with my assignments..Thankz Resh..i owe u!..::..

[Jo Chris n Lyn]

..::haha..this three are super amazing people..we took this pic as a group thingy..Joe is just joe..haha..funny and so random..haha..Chris is super nice..although i don't hang with her much..i noe she's just super...=)..lyn is my beb la..i met this chicka during camp..we've also been thru alot in coll together..but sadly..lately..since our timetables have changed..haven't been seein much of her..we so need to start gym-in la beb!..hahah..she has a really great personality..glad i met her!..=).*HugZ*..::..