tired of shootin blankz?

is that all u got to say to me?

it's all about me huh?

how come that was nvr a problem when u were comfortable?

now something have overturned the boat..

and suddenly me rescuing myself is and issue?

if got sumthin to say to me..just say it and stick by it

don't gimme " i wanted to do this but so and so"

it so doesn't effin count..

this is the first time i don't feel bad

it has all finally grown on me..

u've made me question myself..

u've made me feel insecure

i've put so much on the line for u..

but apparently all that doesnt count..

bein selfish was the only thing that out shined everythin to u

so be it then,

u dealt with it the way u thought was appropriate,

let me do the same then..

i can finally say i'm walkin away too

Clear conscience!

-u have just run out of ammunition, ure shootin blankz now-

-you son of a gun-

-your so vain, u propably think this is about u-

addicted to pain

it's so unfortunately true..

i'm addicted..i swear i am..

no matter how much it hurts i'll come back..

i always do..

i thought i knew better..

it's like a drug..

i don't like it..yet i wan it..

i don't need it and yet i see future use..

sooner or later it's gonna eat me alive

that's when i'mma gonna start prayin..

you and me aren't that different u noe..

ure a selffish and self-centered.and i'm no different..

but sumtimes i wish i was..so i can throw it in ure face

and go on living my life..

my FAVZ!

this videos have gotta be my favz!..so advisable to watch it..it's all not long..but it's so worth it la..esp the 2nd last one..haha..watch his mouth at the end..i noe it's mean..but he's so adorable la..just watch it la..

Pd-liciouz!

well..last tuesday..(yest)..=p..we decided to take a drive down to PD..we needed to check some bungalow out and i needed the sea..haha..i noe..eventhough i was in terengganu..it was still a bust i couldn't go in the water..haha..anyways..i'll blog about that after this k..haha..so anyways..we headed up at around 11..i noe damn late right..we have Sharon to thank for that..haha..anyways all in all we reached Pd at around 12.30 ish..Josh and my sis drove up..

me and sharon ber-poyo-in in the car..heheh..

so we reached there had sumthin to eat..waited awhile..got dressed and headed down into the ocean
when we got all dressed up..hehehe..
me and jordan..
Then we decided to go on the banana boat..HAHAHA..boy was that funny..esp when Peters around..hahah..was abso fun!.damn..the water was *hard to believe* but abso-freakinly clean and clear..just look at it!..haha..see

it was really good...haha..we just played around in the water abit then left around 4.30 ish..cause peter had to go to work..but we did stop by sum where to makan first..and Owh yea..check out the bungalow and stuff..hehe..it was really fun..

charles and peter

peter ber-poyo-in..hehe..with his new hat and shades..ahaha

i'm official effin effed up BURNT!..*curses*..owh yea..atleast i had fun..haha..

and that for once concludes our journey To PD and BACK!..haha..till the next trip!..wopieeee..=)

HAPPY 21ST JOSHUA!!..=)

ju'z 21st!

Well..HAPPIE 21ST BIRTHDAY BAYBEH!..hehe..can't believe ure old!..hahaha..anwayz..was juz birthday on 14th March..but we celebrated it only yest..hehe..we drove down to Klang to have seafood..hehe..it was effin awesome..and cheap..heheh..so yea..enuff said pic time!..hehhe..=)

We (sis and i) baked him a CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE DOUGH CHEESECAKE!...hehe..i noe..i baked...hahah..but it was good!..cheh wah..but it really was la..heheh..

me and sharon ber-poyo..hehe..=)

me and the birthday boy itself..=)

this picture has a funny story to it..we put the camera on a tissue box and put it on timer..and we were all posin and stuff..then on th 3rd sec before takin the pic..the cam fell..so we fell!.hahaha...thus explainin the bowin down shot..haha..

jordan and da laydehz...

hahah..looks like a dang portrait..hahaha..but it's good man

after that we continued our after party at asia cafe..

all in all..it was EFFIN FUN!..hehe..
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY BAYBEH!!

it blows!

Happpy 1 Year AnniVERSaRYYYyyyy!!!..

yeap..thats all the excitment i'm gettin outta this

gosh..it's been one year..

i thought it was gonna be special

but it came and went like any other day

it's ok..i don't blame you..

just let me have my moment..

*blows out my own candle*

there..now i'm done..
*cries myself to sleep*
owh well..there's always next year..hehe..

effin hate who u are

i feel betrayed

a promise is a promise isn't it?

its nvr nice when ure the one receiving the broken piece..

i kinder figured i nvr was the "only" one in ure life,

today u showed me how to hate and love..

u've handed me poison..and i thanked u for it..

intentions were good..atleast i hope..

u showed me how to take my lies deeper..

i love u..but i also effin hate u..

deal with it.

throw of a dice

Lifez awhole lotta things..

it's a bitch..it's a terror..it's a gamble

i've noticed somethin really odd in mine..

i gamble my decisions every freakin day..
not make one..its like flipin a coin..
is my life always gonna be that way?
damn..whut happens when i'm left with only one option..
then whut?..
guess i switch to plan B..
play dead!..XD!..

p/s: Nobody said it had to make sense..Bite me!