..::numb::..

-sometimes u love someone so much-
..u turn numb..
-cause if u really knew how much u loved that person-
..it could kill you..

..::bleh::..

Current mood
-Confused and Sad-
Needs
-Love and Affection-
Wants
-To go back to sleep-
Craving
-Chocolate huggies and Strawberry kisses-

..::relief..=)::..

well havin a happy moment now..so decided to blog about it..hehe..i dreaded comin online nowdays..but i had no choice since i had assignments due..newayz..went to check my mail..and i got this email from my lecturer..i thought gone la..gonna die..he mailed us back our assignments..the first assignment was bad..4.75 outta 8..=s..i noe..like shyt right..then opened the second assignment..7.5 outta 8!!!..bangga giler babing!!..and he doesn't give marks easily..haha..was really proud..but i got like 12.25 outta 16..=s..not very good but good!..hehe..dorongan to do my other assignments..hehe..sorry..small thing like this aso i nak blog..but i'm happy k!..deal with it..=p..hehe..aight..gotta get back to work..i noe..weird right..hehe...tk peepz!..muahz!..

..::ure no one to me anymore::..

i've never felt so miserable in awhile..i usually don't write these kinder things..but it has made a big impact in my life..and this is about my life..so here it goes..i meet a guy in college..he captured my heart someway or another..he wanted to get together right away..way before i even knew him..i told him let takes things slow..i barely noe u..he said ok..somethings lead to another and we became one..so i thought..but during the time i was with him..i felt he nvr really loved me the way he said he did..maybe i approached him the wrong way by sayin i wasn't happy..he said fine..let's end it..i didn't wish to see him go..but if i was on the edge and he had given up too..wats to go on right?..newayz..after that..our relationship was very very rocky..i tried my level best to cut him out of my life..but he stayed..maybe cause i didn't want to see him go..i cried everytime i thought about it..so i tried to talk to him again..because now he's actions show sumthin else..i wanted to noe if there was sumthin there..maybe we could work it out and be back together..so i went to see him..we didn't talk much..cause he didn't feel like it..but he said loved me..and that was all i needed at that point..so fine..went to bed..not realizin wat i was gonna be wakin up to..i got a message..sayin he didn't want anythin to happen between us..cause he doesn't wanna get his heartbroken again..and he does wanna hurt himself again..he thinks that all our foolin around has to stop and he just wanna be friends..i was so hurt when i got it..cause all this while..it was about him..never did it accour to him that i had my heart broken too..i was hurt too..i was a mess..i was willin to put that all asside and try again..but he gave up..i was hurt..i asked him..why did u fuckin say u loved me!..he said i do..but it won't work..i just told him to shut the hell up and stay away from me!..it's so fuckin irratetin when they take everythin in consideration..except ure feelings..it's suckz..so yea..thats my miserable life..

..::it's a secret::..

well yestday..after a tirin day out..in the afternoon..met up with my besties!..luv em to death..hehe..kartz and thigz came to pick me up..thigz surprised us all and gave kart directions..^-^..haha..i noe i noe..even miracles happen!..hahahha...newayz..i was house arrested since i was out late on friday..and sumhow they managed to ask my mum to let me out..hehe..then we headed to secret recipe..hehe..and gossip like non stop..hehe..after awhile..we got bored..and kart wanted to drive around..so we decided to go to sekz 14 to get sumthinz..*winkz*..some sweet thing la..hehe..owh yea..before that we went to see Kartiban who was parked in my coll car park because his car was flooded..hehe..it was rainin cats and dogs..real bad..hehe..newayz..we chilled in the mamak..with out sweet thang..hehe..was an awesome time with them..it always is..=)..luv u guys!..muahz..some cam whorin piccys in secret recipe..heheh..au revoir

..::My photo taking skills..=p::..

..::Karts photo takin skills..=p::..

..::kartz skills..not bad not bad..=p:..

..::thigs skillz..(no comment)..hahahha...=p::..

..::Karma..*blek*::..

OOooo..yest was a night la!..hahha..yest was yohanz birthday..hehe..HARPY BIRTHDAY YOHAN!..hehe..newayz..we all were goin to karma..so i went over to Marilynz house..was so awesome...she stays in a really nice and quiet place..hehe..damn nice..then we took her doggies for a walk..heh..charlie and Scobby..hehe..damn cute!!!..heheh..after that..i stonned in her room..damn awesome..and her bathroom..even awesome-er.hehe..can sleep in there wei..hehe..then we got ready..and met Monica on the way..hehe..then we reached the club around 10.30..hehe..it was not very packed la..considerin it was only 10.30..but still..hehe..well...we chilled there for awhile then around 1 sumthin..got thrown out cause there were rumors that there was gonna be a raid..so we chilled outside then went back to Yohanz place..most of them were drunk..hehe..and well..we ended up playin ps2..hehe..i was with jordan..well..ermm..more on that in the other blog..hehe..newayz..i was waitin for amanda to send me back..waitin waitin waitin..sekali aku pun tidur..hehe.when i woke up 4.30!!!..like wtf??!..i have to go home!!!..hehe..chased everybody..then reached home about 5.30..mandi mandi..then tidur..hehe..not bad right..quite the fun la..hehe..

..:planet shakers::..

well today was a great day!..except the part where someone ruined everythin..i hate u for it!..but what difference does it make..my tears don't mean anythin to u..thank god for good friends..friends listen to ure problems..but true friends..will take the lrt from God noes where..to come and see you..no matter what!..I love u kart!..thankz so much!..well anyways..owh yea..before all that..after class went to see Jay in the hospital..poor fella..just had an op..and I'M SORRY DEVEN!!!...hehe..wasn't planned..=(..jay eventhough in pain had to go home..cause the hospital claimed to have no space..=S..what nonsense right..hiahz..newayz...back to my good day..after droppin kart home..i went to meet Marilyn..who had agreed to follow me to watch the Planet Shakers concert in John's church..it was so fun!..and when i went there..guess who i met!..DIMPZ!..my skool buddy..my Best friend in skool!..hehhe..was great seein her..hehe..might come to coll next month..i hope she comes..hehe..newayz..after the jumpin and screamin..we went for mass at Assumption..was so fun..seein my friends enjoy mass..was pleasin enuff..hehe..then we went out to makan..that was fun too..u guys are great..thankz again Marilyn for temanin me!..luv ya!..haihz..then came home and faced the music by mum!..hehe..kk.better not get into details..Owh yea..and thankz John for invitin me!..was fun!..haha..tk people..have a good one..=)

will upload piccyz once i get it from Gal..hehe..=)

..::everythin is effin up::..

life's been really uphill this pass few days

1.Phones been dead for a week

2.Dead broke!

3.Miss you badly..(and i hate it)

4.My work just got deleted!..

5.I have a appointment to see a doctor..

6.Freaking assignments piling up

7.My course and work is effin up!

8.Been under the weather

9.My life suckz..=(

so u see!..i have permission to be in a cranky mood!..so let me be..

*runs and sits in the corner*

..::Cancer Personality::..

Cancer Personality

Certainly not the easiest person to understand, you are an introvert with a capital I. Emotions are hidden beneath the tough exterior that you possess -- quite similar to the crustacean that represents your zodiac sign. Although you can be kind and affable, your mood swings are unpredictable, tending to be bitter and melancholic, often feeling hurt unnecessarily. While you like to draw sympathy, you can be fairly insensitive towards others, snapping, being rude and short-tempered. However, your seemingly cruel behavior is only a clever means to hide your own insecurities and complexes. Inside, you are almost like a timid, hurt child. You can be admirably kind, generous, understanding and gracious, if all is well with you. Cancerians can be seen involved in many charitable activities, although they will all be at a very public level. No matter how unpleasant you may seem to some people, you have a conscience that prompts you to do the right things - like standing by people in their time of need. Like most water signs, you too have good intuitive powers and mostly put them to good use in managing your life. You have an urge to travel to distant lands but you are a home-loving person. You can do without being so crabby, if one may say so. Keep your moods in check. Remember the people you hurt most often are the ones who have been good to you. You tend to make a mountain out of the molehill and are prone to self-pity. Reserve some of your sensitivity for others who may need it. You can be a tad untidy which won't endear you to more stable signs.

P/S:i find this awesomely true...=)

..::Rock ConCert::..

..::shAron's BAnd..(shes at the far left)..=p::..
..::i caught SamMy in mid air..woot woot..hehe..::..
..::altered frequency::..

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Weellll yesterday...we went for sum church concert thingy in Seksyen 14..Harvest community center...it was awesome..hehe..it was damn fun and very spiritually active..hehe...the sound system and lights were good wei..yea i noe..i'm missin the whole point..haha..no la..the songs and bands were good..i finally got
to see Sammy's band play..and they were awesome..hehe..he was..hhehe...well then i got to see Sharon sing..haha..man was that a surprise..haha..that woman can sing wei..haha..who would have thought..hehehe..well newayz..after that another band altered frequency..*i think*..played..another awesome band..woot woot..thankz to John..Karts,Thigs and Joanna for comin on such short short notice and for accompanying me..props to u guys..hehe..luv u guys!..muahz!..tk and lotsa luck..*winkz*

..::My MerDeka CElebRatiOn::..

OOoo..last thursday..for Merdeka..parents took us out shoppin..well..kinder..considerin i didn't get anythin..lolz..well newayz..after that we went for dinner..woot woot!..was the bomb!..hehe..we went to Sakura..hehe..someplace in KL..supposely famous la..but when i went in..damn stylo siut...hehe..open menu..*gasp*..Malaysian food siut..lolz..nasi lemak..chicken rice..and the priceses...oh god!..ten times what i would normally pay..but the food was said to be good la..heheh..so good enuff..=p..i had mushroom chicken rice..hehehe...wasn't bad..=p

OOoo..this was the best!..hehe..was our appeitizer..hehe..LObster!..woot woot!..heheh..it was really good!!..really..taste like prawns..heheh...neways..my parents actually asked the waitress to pack it for us..she looked at us like..Wtf??..wats wrong with u ppl..hahahha..so funny.. oooo..i had to take a piccy of this..it was a purple light..but can't see it la..dammit!..hehe..and it was so pretty..heheh..really really pretty..hehehe...sorry la!..=p
hehe..was in the moment..had a chocolate milkshake!..hehehehehe...
sumwhat of how the restaurant look liked..heheh